Lately I’ve been thinking a lot about the way online interactions work. We all have to rely on social websites and apps to interact with each other, and each website has its own rules and marketing strategies, which inevitably shape the way we communicate. These platforms are built to make us feel pressured into replying to messages as soon as we can — and make no mistake, that is by design. While this makes sense from a profit-oriented point of view, it can put a strain on relationships. The constant influx of notifications can increase your stress levels, and make…

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Some time ago I played Apology Simulator, a short text-based game that puts you in the role of people who are writing apology letters of various nature. Apologies are something that I believe we don’t talk nearly enough about, and also a topic that is rarely explored in videogames, so it immediately piqued my interest. The game lets you compose letters by picking from a handful of lines, right until you feel satisfied — or, sometimes, the least dissatisfied — and then you…

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Throughout my life, I always found it easier to connect with people who lived far away from me. Years ago I thought it could have to do with my shyness, or with how difficult it is for me to open up with people in general. Perhaps, I thought, it could be the fact that on the internet you don’t have to look people in the eyes and see their cues and reactions, even though I’m not usually shy at all about that sort of thing. Online interactions can be easier because we aren’t forced to reveal too much about ourselves…

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Yesterday I ended my day laying in bed, thinking about a very kind gesture someone did for me and about the fact I simply felt like I didn’t deserve it. Then, I asked myself “When the hell did I decide that I have no value, that no one can ever do something nice for me?” It’s a simple question, yet one I’ve never asked myself before. I can be quite the insecure person, and I go about my day believing that I should always second guess myself — even when I know that I’m probably right. …

When I was a kid I believed that every time I wanted something I would get it. I would stay up late at night watching the sky, and whenever I managed to spot a falling star I would try to think of something I desired. “My wish will come true! I just know it”. Of course, I knew that there was nothing supernatural about it — still, deep down, I believed there was some sort of benign presence watching over me and making sure I would be happy, no matter what. That positive presence did, in fact, exist: it was…

I have a long history with having creative block; whenever my work starts to feel stale, I know that sooner or later I’m bound to get it. The paralyzing fear of making something that can’t live up to my standards doesn’t allow me to create anything. I can feel it coming, and there isn’t really much that I can do. The only thing that seems to help is avoiding fighting it, as whenever I force myself to create something in that state it only seems to get worse.

There’s one small first step that I like taking: making something irrelevant…

Paarsec

I’m a 3D artist and graphic designer.

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